The Worst Thing In The World Could Be The Best
Posted by Goddess Leonie on October 12th, 2009. Filed under: Joyful Goddess Life.When I was a child, I used to pray every night. Feverish prays, hoping that if I could name all the worst things in the world, they wouldn’t happen to.
Dear God, please don’t let anyone in my family die. Please stop the drought. Please don’t let the cattle rustlers steal any more cattle.
Can you tell I grew up on a farm?
I kept thinking if I could stop all those very bad things from happening, then I would be happy. Then everything would be okay.
Guess what?
My brother died. The drought did keep going. And the cattle rustlers keep stealing.
And still, everything was okay. And still, I found happiness.
That thing – the thing you fear the most – or that you feel is the worst thing right now?
It could end up being the very best thing.
It could end up being a ginormous blessing.
It could be a gift.
Right here – in this moment – we don’t have the whole view. We can only guess that this Thing – that Very Terrible Thing – is the worst thing for us. We don’t have all the information, the knowledge and the goodness of being able to look back on it… to see it was right for us, and the best thing.
When my brother died, I thought I would never be happy again. I was wrong. I did find happiness again – a happiness that was more beautiful, richer, deeper and profound than I had known before.
When I broke up with boyfriends, and my heart felt like it was broken on the kerb and I was suffocating with sadness – I could not possibly know then that it was taking me closer to finding my true love.
When my parents were devastated to have to sell my grandmother’s cottage, they didn’t know that it gave us the dream to buy it instead, and the gift of moving back to our homelands when our baby is born. (We’re in the process of settling now!)
When a boy didn’t love me back – I was given the gift of space, and the gift of promise that one day, the right boy would. And he does. And oh, he is so very, very right in a way that first boy could only pale-into-beige mistitched comparison.
When I didn’t win that prize – my life turned out superbly anyway.
When something broke, or was lost, it gave me the gift of the future, and where I needed to be.
When something I wanted desperately to happen didn’t? I realise now I didn’t actually need it the way I thought I did.
I see now that for all the times I fought against the universe, and raged that it hadn’t given me what I wanted – that it was giving me what I truly needed all along.
It has given me medicine, healing, patience, compassion, rich spirit gifts… and it has given me myself as the woman I was born to be, and the life I was meant to lead.
This is a song for you… wherever you are… broken-hearted, lost, or embroiled in That Big Terrible Thing.
I want you to know that everything will be okay – in fact it will be utterly beautiful. And that it’s okay if you don’t believe me. I have enough faith to build a boat for all of us to float in.
What could feel like the Worst Thing In The World right now… could be the biggest miracle you’ve ever known.
I believe in you.
love,
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October 12th, 2009 at 9:19 am
Beautiful wisdom, gorgeously offered. Thank you, dearest Leonie.
Much love to you,
Hiro
October 12th, 2009 at 9:20 am
oh my gosh….so true my dear.
i’m most definitely sitting with these words right now and letting them soak in…
October 12th, 2009 at 10:53 am
I needed to hear this right now and let the words just sink into my soul.
October 12th, 2009 at 11:51 am
Thank you for these words of empowerment Leonie. So much what I needed to read right now.
October 12th, 2009 at 12:41 pm
oh darling Leonie, my heart has just been broken two nights ago when my husband revealed his affair and I have sat here all day staring out the window in my sadness and I had a thought that i could really use some Leonie wisdom right now and a minute or two later when i glanced back at the computer, there were words from you, magical and wise words that I asked the universe for and they appeared, speaking straight to me as I nurse my sadness and grief. You don’t know how wonderful you are in this world darling girl
thank you
October 12th, 2009 at 1:13 pm
thank you leonie.
i needed that right now.
thank you,
<3 fiona
October 12th, 2009 at 6:12 pm
Thank you.
Much love x
October 12th, 2009 at 6:33 pm
Oh i love this so much, it goes perfectly with your video….just such beautiful, beautiful advice leonie!!! love u xxx
October 12th, 2009 at 11:10 pm
Once again, Leonie, you have expressed such deep, beautiful thoughts for all of us to share with you. What you have expressed about our journeys is so true and so easily forgotten as we sit in our pain and sadness and wonder Why me? I have been feeling low lately for many reasons and trying to sort through these dark feelings. Your words remind me that we grow through suffering, and while none of us wants or likes or wants to invite suffering, it is the lead that, with time, alchemically transforms into shining gold, and makes us stronger and wiser. Thank you for your goddess wisdom! And how exciting that you are moving into our grandmother’s cottage in your homeland–it sounds like a full circle and you’re starting a new spiral of the circle with your precious little bean growing inside you. Much love!
October 13th, 2009 at 12:38 am
I was like you when I was a child. Naming the fears so they wouldn´t happen. I haven´t been able to let go of that yet.
October 13th, 2009 at 1:41 am
How is it that I just found your yummy site? Thank you so much for offering up this post. Absolutely perfect.
xx,
Nona
October 13th, 2009 at 4:32 pm
Just what I needed to hear, dearest Leonie. Thank you, as always.x
October 14th, 2009 at 1:05 am
O’ I needed this, thankyou! I’m currently in a crazy, beautiful, bittersweet dance, with my hearts true beloved, waiting, wondering, will the two of us make it thru this, & finally be able to be together.
Sweet Blessings to you. xx
October 14th, 2009 at 8:48 am
One of my favorite stories is an old Chinese proverb, tale?…I don’t know what exactly it is, but it is basically and old man saying he doesn’t know what’s good and what’s bad. Things kept happening to him and people would say, “Isn’t that great!” or, “I’m so sorry, that’s terrible,” and he would say, “We don’t know what’s good and what’s bad.” For the “good” things would end up leading to something that wasn’t necessarily good, but then the “bad” things would lead to something that was better. It’s best to just live life as it is, not trying to control it, not getting too caught up in what happens.
October 17th, 2009 at 12:50 am
“This is a song for you… wherever you are… broken-hearted, lost, or embroiled in That Big Terrible Thing.
I want you to know that everything will be okay – in fact it will be utterly beautiful.”
You made me cry.
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March 24th, 2010 at 6:57 am
Thank you Leonie, I needed this reassurance today! hugs, safe and happy birthing blessings for you and hubby and your sweet angel! xo luv Jenn
April 25th, 2010 at 4:05 pm
Thank you for these words, Leonie. Sometimes we all need to be reminded that everything will be ok….somehow.
Shelly