The Mama Goddess journey begins…
Posted by Goddess Leonie on August 2nd, 2009. Filed under: Mama Goddess.
Hola gorgeous Goddesses,
So much big, beautiful things inside. How on earth to write them?
I wake up, and watch the sunlight glow golden and white through our window. The puppies leap all over Chris, and I snuggle deep into the covers, giggling. The morning is soft – so very very soft.
It’s the same kind of morning like last weekend, like last month,
but this time, something is different.
Inside me, the gentlest little light stirs.
I am pregnant. We are pregnant. We are on the journey of bringing a new little soul into the world.
It is early days yet – I am only six weeks. I know it’s usual to wait until three months before we tell people. We are so understanding that this could be a “this is going to end with a baby coming out my vag” pregnancy, or a “just stopping in to say hello and see you soon” pregnancy. And it’s really going to be okay if it is either. This is part of a woman’s journey, and a man’s journey, and the journey towards life.
Most importantly to me, and to us, is to share our journey with open hearts and open spirits. I can’t imagine not sharing this whole new amazing part of our story with you. And I’d so love to do my part in filling in the cauldron of women’s stories for a woman who is experiencing her first, tender, shaky steps from being a maiden into a mama. We need more mama stories!
And I need to share this part of my path with you… so I can hear your maiden, mama and grandmama stories, wisdom, love and advice too.
It’s been one week since we found out… and our worlds have burst open like a pomegranate – spilling red lushness, sweet seeds and new life into ours…
Today, there is a tiny little new soul swimming inside me. Her heart is the size of a poppyseed. I keep thinking about her tiny, beating poppyseed heart. In the stillness of the night, I try and get quiet enough to hear it. A tiny little poppyseed heart, beating in my womb.
I feel like a beautiful blue whale being held by the sea.
I look into the eyes of my love, and see a daddy being born there. His wisdom and gentleness, his kindness and his giant heart. This morning, I cried into his shoulder, and asked him how to move with with all this change. And in that usual, calm, knowing way of his, he formed the simplest words. Reminding me that all is well, all is beautiful, and all is loved.
And so it is.
What a big, glorious, transformative, medicine-filled journey it is.
Biggest love, and love, and love.
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August 2nd, 2009 at 10:29 pm
Eeeeep! Wooooo! Arrghh! I’m lost for words! In the best best way! Congratulations gorgeous Leonie. I’m so so so so so happy for you and Chris! What wonderful news – I couldn’t click through from Facebook fast enough when I saw that title! You are going to be the most amazing mama. Big big love to you and your poppyseed bub. (I just wrote poopyseed….. Lucas is 12 weeks now and poop is a big topic in our house at the moment
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
August 2nd, 2009 at 10:42 pm
awwww *hugs* <3
good luck!
August 2nd, 2009 at 10:49 pm
I KNEW IT…. my ”skin” told me so… a beautiful Baby Goddess… oh so much love to you both …Carole the pesky one. under down under XXOO XX XO weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
August 2nd, 2009 at 10:59 pm
Oh, Leonie! I’m so excited for you!!!!
August 2nd, 2009 at 11:04 pm
you are going to be the best mamma ever. big love to you, chris and the new soul within…
August 2nd, 2009 at 11:31 pm
It’s only been a couple days since I’ve found your amazing website, and what timing! Congratulations!!! I look so forward to witnessing your mamma journey unfold…
August 2nd, 2009 at 11:31 pm
Oh, Leonie, I cannot imagine a luckier little soul than the one who has chosen you as their gateway into this life.
Many blessings to you all!
Peace and bliss and bounty and beauty and all the best!
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:10 am
Oh, Leonie, i send you a giant, warm, profound an sweet hug, i wish for both of you the most beautiful journey into parenthood. Welcome to the most marvelous, challenging and greatest course of love and generosity, of flexibility and humbleness (at least in my own experience).
I´m so happy for you!
Receive all the blessings, the wisdom and the love you, the three of you deserve and need for walking this gorgeous path you´ve just begun.
Namaste.
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:12 am
Holy Cow! (meant in the nicest, most joyful way imaginable!)
So much congratulations to you three (or five, including the puppies)!! This is going to be an amazing journey.
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:58 am
I happy for both of you. I know you will be an awesome mama!!
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:00 am
*Paula jumps up and down the room in excitement, runs up to Goddess Leonie and gives her the gentlest, most loving hug*
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:26 am
Congratulations, how wonderful! I really admire your perspective on this as a woman’s journey, regardless of the outcome. Best wishes for a happy and healthy pregnancy!
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:28 am
August 3rd, 2009 at 4:57 am
what wonderful, beautiful, magical news.
this is one blessed soul,
growing in a cocoon of love.
congratulations to all of you.
xo
August 3rd, 2009 at 5:00 am
Much love to Leonie, Chris, and Little Poppyseed! (Way to pick a mommy, small one!)
August 3rd, 2009 at 5:21 am
I knew it! I hoped it anyway when you said you had a surprise. Either a new goddess course or a new baby, had to be. Congratulations!! SO exciting!!!!!
August 3rd, 2009 at 5:33 am
Aww! So exciting and beautiful. All three of you.
I can’t wait to share in your journey, I know it will be goddess like in all ways. 
August 3rd, 2009 at 5:36 am
Baby Goddess is a wise spirit in choosing you and Chris as parents! This will be an amazing journey and I’m looking foward to read all about it!
Congratulations on such happy news!!!!!!!
August 3rd, 2009 at 6:06 am
It was in becoming a momma that I first felt a goddess stir in me, congratulations of your wonderful news! You are going to be the most amazing momma ever!
August 3rd, 2009 at 6:42 am
Congratulations, Leonie!
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:03 am
I am so happy for all three of you, what a wondrous, magical journey…
(((HUGS))) & lots of love,
me
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:04 am
Congratulations! Many blessing on you and the babe…
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:09 am
Sweetest Mama Goddess, Baby Goddess and Divine Chris, blessings, blessings, biggest hugs, and so much love for all three of you.
xoxoxo Hiro
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:30 am
Oh Leonie that is the most magical news EVER!!! I’m so overflowing with happiness for you and Chris…..congratulations you beautiful, beautiful people. Much love xo
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:53 am
congratulations leonie this is wonderful.
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:57 am
Congratulations and hearty hugs to you and Chris, darlin Leonie! So happy for you!!
August 3rd, 2009 at 8:24 am
oh beloved luscious leonie…
this is an adventure beyond measure
i welcome the wee soul within to the world of goddesses, honour his or her choice and send love and blessings to you and Chris and the pooches….light and grace to you all!
August 3rd, 2009 at 8:41 am
Perfect! Wonderful! Joyous! Love^forever!!
August 3rd, 2009 at 8:51 am
Congrats dear Leonie!!!!! A precious little baby darlin’ has decided to come through YOU! I can’t wait to read more about this truly breathtaking journey. mwah!
August 3rd, 2009 at 9:33 am
Okay, I just had to pop back in and say that the sentence ‘baby coming out my vag’ has had me giggling all morning. xo
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:16 am
Yay! I eagerly await your unfolding mama story with a deep appreciation for your open heart!
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:09 pm
How absolutely perfect I am mother of 3 grandmother to 9 of the most exquisite children on this planet. Good luck on this journey. It is a wild ride for sure.
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:42 pm
I knew this, too. I had been thinking of it for a while now, wondering when, but knowing it would happen.
All brightest, most loving blessings on you and your little family, already created. This new little soul will be about the luckiest baby in the world to have such a loving and gentle mama and daddy.
I’m so happy for you and for your love, dearest Leonie. Much, much love to you all.
xoxoxo
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:11 pm
I can’t imagine a more loving earthy wonderful momma in the world.
Congratulations to you and your whole growing family.
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:27 pm
Congratulations to the Goddess’ family!
With all the blessings!
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:43 pm
Congratulations!!!!!!! Just had to pop out of my quietness to wish you well on your amazing journey. Love to all of you!
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:00 pm
Your news has brought emotional tears to my eyes, I’m so happy for your sweet self and dearest Chris! what a wise soul to have entrusted you both with it’s care and nourishment in this world. Bless you all! I know you will be wonderful parents. I didn’t know a THING about babies with my first one…he trained me well. I had 5 more.
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:56 pm
Congratulations on your magical news! Be extra gentle with yourself, it can be such an emotional roller coaster with the hormones and fatigue. Let the tears come, and take lots of naps, your body is making a baby! Yay!
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:56 pm
Wahoo! I am tearing up for you. So happy. Love to you and the baby and Chris! *dances around the room and lights a candle for the baby*
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:05 pm
dearest leonie,
i am up in the wee hours of the morning here, just quickly clicking around the internet before i go and meet a birthing friend at the hospital to help her welcome her baby into the world. and something told me to click over here…and LOOK. what beauty! congrats on your journey…you have a tribe of radiant souls holding you up, mama.
xx
nb.
August 3rd, 2009 at 10:05 pm
What a beautiful adventure you two are in for. Warmest congratulations. Keep writing everything down for the little one, one day she’ll thank you for it.
August 3rd, 2009 at 10:20 pm
This is so the best most beautiful news! I am so moved by the beauty and power of it all. Congratulations!
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:27 pm
I echo all the comments ahead of mine – especially the one that says, “way to pick a mommy, little one.”
What joy and fun and laughter and love – and late nights and early mornings and messy meals and sore boobies – and what a great family you all will be. It’s all part of the journey – and what a glorious journey it is. There are many stories for us to tell of our own journeys of motherhood, but the best and greatest and most important story is your own.
I know, know, know that you will take lots of photos and journal and paint and capture this story in all its wonder in many ways. Yeah for you and Chris and the little soul swimming and growing inside of you. Take great and gentle care of yourself, sweet mama-woman.
August 4th, 2009 at 3:21 am
I’m over the moon for you and Chris!
Congratulations, Mama!
August 4th, 2009 at 3:59 am
Gorgeous Mama Goddess
So here it begins, whichever, whatever, this is parenting Gorgeous style!
Wow what a wide river life is and you are swimming so beautifully!
Love love and love
Juliaxxx
August 4th, 2009 at 5:43 am
This is sooo sweet! Congratulations and many many many blessings!
August 4th, 2009 at 7:54 am
i knew that when sweet Rebble disappeared something brilliant was just around the corner!!! blessings to you three, and the circle of love that surrounds you. can’t wait to see the unintended consequences here, too!
hugs for the new life, and hugs for the light Rebble gave you that brought to this great new place…
August 4th, 2009 at 8:48 am
That’s such wonderful gorgeous beautiful blessed news dear goddess!!! how amazing!!! what glorious parents you both shall be ~ so many blessings : )
August 4th, 2009 at 10:54 am
oh leonie!
i’m so teary….you are going to be such an incredible mama and such a beea-uuuu-ti-fullllll pregnant goddess with a slowly growing belly.
i’m squealing with joy for you and your sweetie!!!!! wishing i could give you a big hug and squeal with joy and jump up and down!
i’m so glad you decided to share this with us!!!
love you honey!!!
August 4th, 2009 at 6:46 pm
Loneybabe, I don’t even have the words…I ditto all the comments before me. I did read this last night and had to digest for a while before replying, I am just so overwhelmed with pure joy. You, my beautiful firend were born for this journey, I am so very happy for you and HunkyChris, I just cannot tell you how happy-to-my-belly this news made me. Seriously Honey, you blow me away with BIG happiness.
Love, love and oh so much LOVE to you,
Nixie
August 4th, 2009 at 6:54 pm
What wonderful news
Sending love, positive energy and many, many smiles, to all three of you. This will be an amazing journey for you all and I am blessed to be able to share a tiny part of it with you.
August 4th, 2009 at 10:58 pm
Oh, congratulations!!
You’re both embarking on such an amazing journey – I wish you many, many blessings!
August 5th, 2009 at 5:10 am
Congratulations!!! I am so happy for you. Being a mummy is amazing. I’m sending so many good wishes for your pregnancy and I feel honoured and excited to hear all about your journey.
August 5th, 2009 at 10:08 am
What fabtastic news Leonie!!! A wonderful new and blessed path that you , Chris, the pups and the new little soul to explore. I am so excited (doing a little dance and cheer).
And I get to tell Si “I told you so too” bonus! LOL.
Love and hugs Rob
August 5th, 2009 at 2:27 pm
Congratulations dear one! What a fantastic mama you’re going to be – so full of love, warmth and wisdom. Very excited for you and your honey.
Big hugs,
Jenn
August 5th, 2009 at 2:45 pm
Leonie,
Oh this is such wonderful news. You will make such a wonderful mother. Congrats to the whole family….
Kate
August 6th, 2009 at 7:32 am
heylo beautifuls, beautifuls, beautifuls…
i’m just so touched by all of you…
thank you for being here, sharing in our story… and the beginning of a whole new goddess life
i adore you all so much,
love,
la la la leonie
August 7th, 2009 at 12:26 am
WOW!!!
Just found out the glorious news!!
Congrats to both of you! This is going to be the luckiest little baby in the world.
I love how you write about his/her “poppyseed heart beating”.
So beautiful.
((((hugging & rubbing your belly))))
August 7th, 2009 at 3:43 am
Congratulations sweet Leonie!
August 8th, 2009 at 8:20 am
Oh Leonie! I am behind on blogs and I just got this news via Twitter… how gorgeously exciting! If anyone is meant to be a {sacred} mama, is is you my dear! Much love!
August 11th, 2009 at 4:24 pm
You know I am right here by you, baby girl. I am so excited and am holding my breath for more details!!
Love to you, lovely Goddess….
xoxoxoxo pixie hugs!!!
August 12th, 2009 at 1:34 pm
oh my goodness, such beautiful news! so happy for you two!!!
many blessings…
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