{Talking Stick Circle} begins
Posted by Goddess Leonie on March 9th, 2010. Filed under: Joyful Goddess Life.
Hola gorgeous Goddesses~
Every time we sit in circle, the talking stick goes around.
The talking stick is made from wooden… smooth to touch, adorned with feathers, crystals, stones, wool…
And each woman is passed it, and she holds it, and she shares where her journey has taken her, what her work has been, what blessings and medicine have arisen.
And she is heard, and she passes the talking stick on.
And on and on, we learn our lessons from hearing each other’s stories. We become clearer as the threads of our lives weave together into understanding. We learn how to be honest with our marvellous truth, and we learn just how big, beautiful and sacred every other woman’s journey is too.
So I wanted to bring that here. The talking stick, the circle. The sharing of our journeys and where we are at.
I’ll share my spirit’s story, and you’ll share yours. We’ll get to learn from each other’s stories and wisdom.
Every time women circle, miracles happen.
Taking the Talking Stick
Here I sit.
Thirty-six weeks pregnant.
with pregnacious-mermaid hair.
Fullness
There’s so much to do.
This must be what they call nesting.
Currently, our home looks like piles of this:
It’s the result of both me & Papa Bear feeling like our home needs space – much much much more space… to fit Little Mermaid in.
Our huge TV and stereo are going. Boxes of kitchen stuff. Electronic crap. Extra furniture.
We’re even letting go books & oracle cards ~ unheard of for two wisdom-collecting Scorpios. {We’ve got a few things listed on ebay if you were wanting to check them out!}
And everytime we face that mountaineous wall of stuff… and have moments of fear of letting these things go…
we remember:
there is something new coming. We will feel so much lighter once these are gone.
And we have that courage, and do it… we find out we were right.
I don’t regret letting go of anything. I don’t miss it.
The things didn’t make me happy.
If anything, they made our space a little more congested, a little less flow-y, a little less easy to live in.
I’m realising again and again:
It’s my life that makes me happy.
Especially this part of my life.
Getting rid of stuff brings up stuff
It does. I want to acknowledge this.
I remember when my love decided to let go of his music collection.
His music collection had been for years a part of his identity – Ozzy Osbourne, Black Sabbath, Cradle of Filth.
My hottie rocker man.
And then somewhere along the line, he mellowed. He started listening to world music and folk music.
And he made a huge decision one day to let go of his collection.
We walked into a cd-buying store, and I saw him tense. I saw the courage it took for him to leave his CDs there.
We walked out to the car.
How are you feeling hon?
Like I’m going to throw up, he said.
So we sat in the car for a while until the waves of change washed all around us, and he felt centered again.
He felt clearer afterwards, but in the midst of it – it was hard.
And so I see in myself all the hard and stuff that comes up with letting go of our stuff.
I notice that I feel a little bit worried when my home isn’t cluttered – it reminds me of the days when we didn’t have much money at all, and the years it took us to collect furniture when we first moved here.
I notice that there is a certain comfort in being hemmed in by stuff… it’s like a swaddle of sorts.
And I also notice that I feel so much clearer in my life and heart when there isn’t so much stuff around me.
I notice this could be a time for me to have faith in abundance and the flow of prosperity.
That space doesn’t mean lack.
That space could mean room to move, breath, create and grow.
Space could mean I get to see and make all my choices clearly, instead of feeling overwhelmed by them.
Letting Go
And with all this life-changing, house-cleansing, pregnancy-fullness, I learn and re-learn the art of letting go.
I let go of tensing when Little Mermaid moves, hoping she doesn’t turn breech again.
I let go of thinking I can control that.
I allow in the possibility that all is perfect, and that whatever Little Mermaid needs is the right thing. If that means breech, if that means head-down, if that means vaginal birth, if that means caesarean.
I let go of thinking I know the right way and the perfect way.
I allow life to show me that way instead.
So much to be done!
And… finally… the other thing that is with me at the moment… is the feeling of so much to be done!
Goddess School beginning again. {Thank Great Spirit for Goddess Sone, my magical and wonderful Goddess School helper! She makes it all so wonderful.}
Naps and doula appointments and books to read.
An Online Business Goddess kit that is slowly writing itself.
A home that is still in the act of being cleansed and prepared and cleared.
Most of all though, I want to remember this:
That calm & grace surround me now.
That I only need to take one step at a time.
That life is giving me just what I need, right now and always.
Passing the Talking Stick
How has your journey been, dearest heart?
What lessons, blessings and medicine have arisen for you?
You are so loved and cherished,
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March 9th, 2010 at 11:10 am
Hugs to you (((Leonie))). Looking around my space I need a little cleaning session as well. Some things need to be removed so I have more room. I think this would be the perfect opportunity to do that. Thanks for the “kick in the butt”.
Savvy.
March 9th, 2010 at 12:23 pm
I don’t know what lessons I’m learning. I’m sure going through stuff. I’m sure I’m learning *something*, I just don’t know what yet.
I keep thinking, everything I want to do, I could have done without my uterus collapsing. Every project, every idea, every thing that comes to me, I could have done with my body intact, with my plans for the year intact, with my life as I wanted it to be intact.
But it’s not like that anymore, so I don’t know what to do from here.
I’m finally opening up, after over a month of hardcore closing off and walling up. I’m finally realizing and accepting that this, no matter how painful, no matter how terrible, is how things are and will be and are supposed to be.
The rest, I guess, will come.
March 9th, 2010 at 1:52 pm
My lessons have been hard the past few years. I had to sell my house and move in with my mother. It has not been easy not having a space of my own, so I’m trying to make where I am my own as much as I can. Sometimes my sacred space is just in my room for a while – which is good, but I long to have something to call my own. I am still on that journey, and at times, I am not patient. It’s crazy at work too, so that saps a great deal of my energy. I just found you and this place recently, and your meditations have been very helpful. I suffer from anxiety and depression and am fighting to come off my meds eventually, with my doctor’s help of course.
That is my story right now.
March 9th, 2010 at 2:31 pm
My lesson came to me this morning – loud and clear with a very large BANG!
……..i’d had just spent 20mins rushing around, rushing the children into the car, rushing to get shoes, bags and hats ready for school – telling my children to hurry, hurry, we are going to be late…….and then reversing into a car space at my son’s gorgeous school, I was talking to the kids, watching the car next to me and watching the road works across the road – BANG!
I reversed too far into a tree – back windscreen smashed……….and all I wanted to do was cry………..so what did all my rushing achieve this morning???
Nothing, save raised blood pressure, anxious children and a smashed back windscreen…………
My lesson is to slow done and my medicine will be doll making class tonight – where I will hand sew and chat with beautiful women and remember to slow down…………
Jxx
March 9th, 2010 at 3:12 pm
I’ve dredged up some very old hurts lately. I have been learning that I am not my hurts. My medicine has been my friends and paint. Paint is such good medicine for me bright colours that make me feel like a shiny goddess.
March 9th, 2010 at 5:14 pm
I learning that life is transient but love is not
i am learning that echos of pain and joy can travel the world
i am learning that magic is real
i am learning that synchronicity is the universe cheering me on
and slowly
very slowly
that i may deserve some of those cheers
March 9th, 2010 at 7:55 pm
Hello Beautiful one
SOLD
Radelaide here we come
3 huge loads to the dump
3 visits to Salvo”s
our beautiful neighbor who deserves everything we have given her
the wonderful ”rubbish day man” i thank him every Wednesday lll looking to the heavens
yep we have certainly got rid of a lot of crap…. should be more …but i will do that when we get to the other side
and have Australia”s largest garage sale…. i will send you the date hahaha
cant wait for your big day Leonie mwah mwah
March 9th, 2010 at 9:16 pm
I am clearing lots of things at the moment. I feel like I need to create heaven around me. My piece of heaven, a spiritual sanctuary and making the house easier to clean. So I have more time to play with my daughter, to write and take photographs.
My husband calls it the “Mel is becoming spatially aware.” Very true:)
March 10th, 2010 at 12:19 am
I’m learning patience, & compassion with ‘what is’. I’m learning how strong I truly am, learning that I am not my depression, or disability. I’m learning to allow myself to be loved unconditionally by my hearts true beloved, so I may love him back in equal part. I’m learning how to love myself, heal myself, befriend myself, so I may do the same for others. I’m learning just how beautiful this life is, no matter how messy, or faded the joy sometimes appears to be. I’m remembering just how blessed I am
xx<3
March 10th, 2010 at 7:03 am
Am so wishing to clear some space here. I think it might be connected with welcoming in the spring, but I’m really feeling the urge to rid our home of all the unnecessary bits and pieces that I feel are draining me of my energy. I hope to follow your example. But I really stopped to comment and say how utterly glowing and gorgeous you are looking especially in that first photo – you are a poster girl for pregnant goddesses everywhere.
March 10th, 2010 at 11:51 am
I am SO wanting to let go of all the excess stuff in my home so that I have space to create, breathe & heal. I got a good start this weekend – ripped tons of clothing items off their hangers at warp speed & dumped 2 pairs of boots from their original boxes into the donate box, along with the clothes. (The box is still sitting here, begging to have the contents re-evaluated, mind you!
Was laughing at myself sitting in the bathtub this morning. I was looking out at the empty boot boxes in the hallway…and thinking “I can’t part with my boots!!!” I asked myself, “and when did you wear them last?” I answered myself, “I don’t know…a year or two ago?” “And they’ve been packed away in the closet ever since, right?” “Yes.” I then reminded myself, “and when you tried them on this year, they did not fit, right?” “Yes,” I answered. “They were way too tight & my toes were painfully squished up against the edge.” “Okay…then WHY would you want to keep them, my dear?” Because I LOVE them, and they make me happy.”
Yup, that’s the whole purpose to having a cool pair of black and brown suede “pirate wench meets Stevie Nicks” feeling boots. Not to wear them – that would be silly! Why the heck would I want to WEAR them? Nope, the purpose is to keep them packed away in the closet & to cry about parting with them because they make me happy to LOOK at…that is, when I even remember that I HAVE them! LOL!
I guess it’s time to finally give the boots…well, the boot!
…Unless there’s some miraculous chance that my foot will shrink in the next week or so??? 
This de-cluttering adventure is definitely entertaining, isn’t it???
Blessings…
March 10th, 2010 at 1:32 pm
I’m trying to let go of old hurts. Trying to find myself again, struggling to find work, to find confidence in myself, to find peace. I want to be happy again and just live life.
I’m finding it hard to do basic things and want to heal from all this crap and move on. I have to trust in myself and just move instead of standing still. I just don’t feel anything driving me anymore and don’t know how to restart my engine so to speak. I need to find my spark and not be afraid to reach out and work to take it.
It isn’t going to come knocking by itself.
March 10th, 2010 at 1:37 pm
Also, Leonie I want your hair! LOL! I can’t wait until mine gets that long and beautiful. What the heck do you wash it with? Fairy dust? Geez, woman! Gorgeous!
March 10th, 2010 at 9:20 pm
i feel soooo much better when ive decluttered and packed up aload of bags to give away to the charity shops…….i met this girl when i was travelling, she was from australia and she had been travelling for years without going back home…..and all she had to her name was her backpack!! how amazing must that feel to have nothing! so freeing! she was such a brave woman!! only 24! xxx
March 11th, 2010 at 2:43 am
Hi
I teach writing, journalling, and write poetry, plus yoga and meditation are my favourite things, so more sacred space for me will be wonderful.
I found your magical site (love the colours!) through a link on Owning Pink member’s blog. Lovely post, letting go and making room. I’m at the other end of the spectrum, 2 kids still at home but in college, getting ready to spread their wings, empty nest to come and more fullness of time for me
Letting go is part of spring, part of mid-life, part of new beginnings, part of endings – I guess we’re always letting go of something.
Right now, I am letting go of wondering what the future is going to bring…..
nameste
jenn
aka musemother
March 11th, 2010 at 7:51 am
Dearest Leonie,
What perfect timing this post has been for me. It has enabled me to discover the mission I am on this year. I feel that I am in the process of letting go…letting go of my possessions that no longer serve me, letting go of limiting beliefs and letting go of the excess weight that I carry. I feel as though the seeds of change that I planted years ago are starting to sprout and now is my time for action. Thank you so much for this beautiful post and by the way I love, love, love your mermaid hair.
Much Love,
Laura
March 11th, 2010 at 4:04 pm
My journey right now is about opening up. Its about letting myself shine, no longer diminishing my light, my strengths around others. About opening up even when Im not perfect- cause who is?! Its about knowing the difference between between being humble and being self-depricating, cause sometimes that is a fine line between the two. These days are about rising to each of them willing completely to be whatever is asked of me. not to shy away anymore. But to be brave and willing.
March 25th, 2011 at 8:36 pm
I am up early wandering the web and I stumbled into your site. I heard repetitive reminders that I have been avoided because of the angst of letting go. I too am shedding pounds slowly but surly releasing the burdens (dead weight). I have become paralyzed in the midst of packing up my office (impending -layoff) but I think I need to leave so many of those items right where they are. I just started a film course Wowee I am lovin’ it. I teach a course later today in storytelling so the universe is providing me space , I now must carve some out for myself. You must have given birth by now , enjoy motherhood you get better with time:)