Pregnant Goddess Video Diary: Week 7
Posted by Goddess Leonie on August 12th, 2009. Filed under: Mama Goddess.
Hola beautiful souls,
In keeping with my brand new tradition, I made you a video diary of Week Seven. Messy and sick and teary and honest.
And, like last week, the
Rules are as such:
1a.) I will make them as honest as possible
1b.) I will not make things sound deeper/better/lovelier than they are
2.) I will do them exactly as I am (hello bed-hair and inside-out-pyjamas)
3.) I will try really, really hard not to make any excuses about them (that I frequently forget things during them, that I may not sound grateful for being pregnacious, that my fringe is untamable)
Forewarning
Now before this post, I just want to make a goddess warning. This one is emotional. And rough. And I let you in on my worst day yet. There is a happy ending though. Just telling you, because I like knowing how things end.
Pregnant Goddess Diary – Week Seven from Goddess Leonie on Vimeo.
So there you go… my journey… as big and shifting and hard and glowing as it is…
And if you’re wanting to catch up on all the pregnacious stories and videos, head on over to the Mama Goddess page.
So grateful to be here. So grateful you are here.
Group hugs,
xoxo
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August 13th, 2009 at 12:19 am
Hugs to YOU!
The first trimester is the scariest in many ways…you’re still adjusting to being on this journey, and you can’t feel kicks or hear heartbeats yet -it’s simultaneously real and not-real. I’m so happy you’re sharing this part of the journey with people….it’s true that most women feel like they need to keep it a secret at this point, and that’s a lonely feeling.
I’m glad that everything turned out OK.
xoxoxo
Meg
PS: I was watching the video on my laptop and just as you showed us your “Faith” affirmation my little one crawled into my lap and gave me a kiss. *love*
August 13th, 2009 at 1:32 am
Hey sweet possum! Don’t forget that you are getting flooded with hormones that make you feel crazy and emotional on top of all the physical changes. It takes courage to share the bad with the good. I was thinking you were awash in fear when you mentioned the angel card and meditation which was a very good thing to do. You will find there is always an element of fear around the safety of your child and as a mum you learn to cope with it. Blessings to you all.
August 13th, 2009 at 2:30 am
Oh Leonie, first of all, I´m sending you a big, warm and deep hug, I know what you´re experiencing it´s not easy at all. I found out I was pregnant at 9 weeks, before I knew, I felt awful, kind of depressed, not wanting to eat almost anything, uneased, crying for everything and scared cause I did´nt understand what was going on with me.
I was totally sure I wasn´t pregnant, (in absolute denyal) and when I took a test I still couldn´t believe it!!!! LOL
But you know what?
Two days later I got to hear my baby´s heartbeat, and even it was in less than desirable circumstances, since the doctor was cold and rude and I was scared, the minute I heard that beautiful and speed heartbeat, I started feeling a mom, I realized a soul and a baby was inside me, and from that moment my attitude changed instantely, and altough I continued having nausea and feeling soooo tired and sleepy, I felt it was all worth it, and that eased the yucky sensations a lot, at least my response to them. On the other hand I can tell you that even I tried my best to stay always positive and confident that everything was going to be allright, I couldn´t stop myself from worrying when my body felt something unfamiliar, I think is almost inevitable not to feel concerned about your baby´s well being, cause you can´t see him/her and altough you feel so responsable for your pregnancy´s development, at the same time are things that you can´t control and prevent and that is what it freeks us out.
It´s all right, every feeling it´s part of your process, and like you said it: it´s all about faith.
Beautiful Leonie, bless u and your gorgeous family.
August 13th, 2009 at 3:17 am
I love you so much. You’re so amazing and strong and brave.
Thank you for sharing all of this. It’s helping me on my journey of healing and release.
August 13th, 2009 at 8:06 am
Okay, I’m only about halfway through the video so far, but I have to pause and say that I think it’s wonderful that you’re sharing this and that your child will be incredibly lucky to be able to see how his or her mom felt, and changed, and grew, and even cried during the process of bringing this new person about.
Also, that I can’t wait to “meet,” however it may be possible, your son or daughter and I can’t even imagine how amazing and joyous a person could become with all the love you will — and are already — heaping upon them.
It’s truly exciting to await.
August 14th, 2009 at 6:23 am
*Lots of hugs* It’s so inspiring to watch you and your strength as you go through all of these ups and downs. It must be so hard though, and you’ve got nothing but my support and love.
P.S. Charlie is a cutie! I didn’t know what that sound was at first?!
August 14th, 2009 at 11:00 am
I am HONORED that you are sharing with us and send you big love and good vibes. YOu amaze me and I feel so fortunate to have ‘met’ you in the big blog world.
August 14th, 2009 at 3:39 pm
Your bravery and strength and honesty are utterly amazing.
You are beautiful, my sweet Goddess Leonie.
August 16th, 2009 at 6:57 pm
Victoria said it perfectly – you are utterly amazing Goddess!
Big love XXX
August 22nd, 2009 at 11:34 pm
Sending you soooo much love after watching this one. You are so brave and beautiful for sharing the tears and fears as well as the laughter and smiles.
PS: Pregnancy constipation SUCKS!!!!