Celebration of six months pregnacious
Posted by Goddess Leonie on January 3rd, 2010. Filed under: Mama Goddess.
Dear daughter of my heart, six-months-old-in-my-womb,
We have three more moons together, where you will be living in my womb, and we are only cells apart.
On July 7th, you came into this world, thirty years to the day that your grandmama & grandpapa pledged their love to each other.
And in a thousand, myriad, rainbow ways, you have changed me, you have changed your papa, and you have changed those who love us.
You feel like sunshine and starlight and laughter and music.
You sing of intuition and mermaids and Atlantis and ancient wisdom and goodness.
You make me believe all the more in miracles, in love, and what we are each here for…
to be the very best part of ourselves.
And you my darling… when you came into my world, I was cleansed clean…
and I glimpse within myself more lightness, truth, love and clarity than I had before.
And it’s apparent in my body.
For the first five weeks, I spent my days throwing up, staring at my hands, and trying not to throw up.
I threw up a whole world.
And it was the hardest thing I’ve ever been through, but I see now what a gift it was.
You cleansed me clean. Every part that needed to be let go of was released.
The oldest of energies was thrown up in our garden, over and over again.
And in the place where I threw up?
Poppies & sunflowers now bloom.
And I feel stronger, lighter and more present in my body than I have in my life.
Without even trying – without any conscious thought or will involved at all – I see my body transforming into the body it was singing to be.
My body – the body I share with you – now moves & eats entirely according to intuition. Some days, all I can eat is the lightest of foods, and think nothing of consuming a bowl of cherries for dinner. Some days, I wake up ravenous for food. Some days we need to cycle. Some days, we need to walk by the river. Some days, we need to swim.
And it might seem like a small thing – but it feels like something much, much bigger is happening here.
I am moulding into the goddess I have always been, the goddess I was born to be, your mama goddess, a creatrix goddess, a loving goddess.
I am strong and courageous… and I am light.
You have been a dream come true. I am becoming the woman I need to be in order to be your mama.
Your grandmama said to me at the beginning of all of this:
When I became a mama, I became who I was meant to be.
And I know what she means now.
I know in a way that is in my soul, and in my cells… and the truth of it will continue to be born.
I don’t want to say that I can’t wait to meet you…
because I’ve already met you, and right now, we are as close as two bodies could be.
I hold you, and you hold me.
As excited and joyful as I am about your birth, I don’t want to wish away these next three moons with you.
Together, we will adventure, and we will laugh.
There will be early mornings where we sit, meditating in the soft dawn light, smiling together.
There will be more naps like this afternoon, where I slept with my belly curled around your daddy’s head so we could both feel you move.
Each part of this journey is sacred, and a divine, loving blessing.
Thank you, darling.
Let’s keep having this much fun!
You are now so big that my belly gives big waves and ripples as you do your mermaid dance and flips. I hope you are comfortable in there darling.
Last night, me & your papa were laughing as we watched you flip, over & over in my belly, coming to rest with your back against the left of my belly button.
And your daddy got his big warm hands and softly massaged you through my skin…
and you shimmered, and I felt your joy radiate up to me,
and we watched as you pushed out against my skin, reaching up to touch your daddy.
I will teach you all the beauty, love, goodness & possibility I know in this world.
And I know you will teach me too.
Because that’s our sacred contract. That’s what we come into our lives to do…
to teach each other, and love each other,
and see God in each other.
That is how it has always been, and how it will always be.
You are a light in our hearts, dearest daughter. We are so blessed to have you in our world.
We will always love you from the stars, and beyond.
I always say:
You were born magnificent.
But I see now that we are magnificent before then too. We come ready made magnificent – even before we are the smallest light of cell… we are already magnificent.
I love you forever,
Mama
xoxoxo
January 3rd, 2010 at 6:07 pm
well this just made my heart swell!
beautiful.
January 3rd, 2010 at 7:12 pm
what a beautiful letter to your daughter. it warms my heart to read your loving words
January 3rd, 2010 at 7:14 pm
Beuatiful pictures; beautiful sentiments ~~~ All hugs and good thoughts going out to you, the merbaby, and Chris ~~~
{{{{{}}}}}
bobbie
January 3rd, 2010 at 7:37 pm
lucky lucky Goddess Baby xxx x xx Carole
January 3rd, 2010 at 8:06 pm
Those photos are so beautiful and the letter to your daughter is so heartfelt. She is very lucky to have you as her mama
January 3rd, 2010 at 8:28 pm
I love this. I love YOU! xoxo
January 3rd, 2010 at 10:14 pm
beautiful mama, beautiful words, blessed baby! how special this time is…loved reading your thoughts and seeing your yummy belly!
em x
January 3rd, 2010 at 10:57 pm
Amazing to read – so so so *beautiful* Leonie! You look a complete goddess in those pics.
January 3rd, 2010 at 11:24 pm
What gorgeous photos! I love the colors and effects used on several of them! Your words to your little mermaid are truly an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your deepest thoughts with us!
January 4th, 2010 at 12:37 am
Loved this post, Leonie!! I can’t wait to someday experience this. You make it sound so magical!!
Much love,
Nina
January 4th, 2010 at 2:53 am
So well put. You have expressed your joy in a way we could all feel it. Much love to you and your growing family.
January 4th, 2010 at 3:47 am
Leonie……Your just too amazing for me to comprehend right now!!!!! Seriously, that was AAMAZING….makes me want to cry!!!
You’ve always blown my mind how magikal and amazing you are!!!
Your goddess mermaid is so very, very, very LUCKY!!!!!
)))))))))))) xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
January 4th, 2010 at 4:05 am
You look so full of light and love in your pictures!And your words to litle merbaby..beautiful.Thank you for sharing this with us.xxx
January 4th, 2010 at 5:04 am
Oh what a beautiful letter to your daughter you are so blessed to have each other.
January 4th, 2010 at 6:16 am
You are radiant, and your words touched my heart. Green blessings to your magical family! XO
January 4th, 2010 at 6:52 am
oh, tears in my eyes!
you are beautiful inside and out. and i’m so grateful that you’re sharing your amazing journey with us. i feel honored to witness it!
January 4th, 2010 at 7:54 am
BEAUTIFUL!
What a lovely post. Thank you!
January 4th, 2010 at 9:45 am
This is pure gorgeousness!!
January 4th, 2010 at 11:13 am
So beautiful you brought tears to my eyes. Congratulations, Leonie!
January 4th, 2010 at 2:00 pm
This post made me cry. I wish you only the best as you journey into motherhood. You sound like you’ll be an amazing mother.
January 4th, 2010 at 2:01 pm
Glorious! Absolutely divine. Just drinking in your beauty and the loving mama energy you are sharing with your mermaid and the rest of us. Thank you.
January 4th, 2010 at 3:16 pm
This is so, so lovely. I can relate to so much of it.
Although, you have a much better perspective than I did on the throwing up. I think I will borrow the cleansing concept, should I ever find myself in that position again.
Blessings, Leonie!
January 4th, 2010 at 5:58 pm
beautiful photographs and feelings, so much love !
January 5th, 2010 at 12:04 am
What an incredible, fabulous post!
And you look absolutely radiant!!!
great pics!!!
January 5th, 2010 at 2:48 am
Wow, that was really beautiful. Beautiful pictures of you too. I love the positive energy.
January 5th, 2010 at 3:25 am
You are so beautiful, my dear. Your belly is perfect!
January 5th, 2010 at 5:37 am
This is seriously the most beautiful thing I have ever read. It makes me want to birth again…but not possible. So I will celebrate you and this precious little lucky, blessed Goddessy Mermaid and continue to follow this magical journey with you . Thank you for sharing.
January 5th, 2010 at 5:59 am
Holy goodness gracious. So beautiful. You, your words, the pictures, and how deeply you love.
January 5th, 2010 at 8:27 am
You made my eyes leak a little.
They leak with the love that is glowing on this page…within you.
Blessed Be,
VSD
January 5th, 2010 at 8:47 am
What a beautiful letter to your daughter. What beautiful photos of you, dear Mama. Soooo wonderful. Thanks for sharing it all with us. She is sooooooooooo blessed to have you for her mother. Not many babies are as loved once they are in the world even as much as you already love this girl who is still in utero. You will all be a better and stronger and closer family because of these magnificent stories and letters and moments of loving her while she is still swimming inside you.
Thanks again for sharing this wonder-filled post with us.
January 5th, 2010 at 10:40 am
This is one of the most beautiful things from a mother to her child that I have ever read. You made my heart burst open. This is the journey of a mama, from that magic moment that they start growing within us. I love how you wrote that our job is to teach each other. Such truth. Thank you for writing this.
January 5th, 2010 at 4:07 pm
Leonie, you are radiant in your pictures.
You are a beautiful mama to be.
On a side note, I read a great book called
Sepluchre by Kate Mosse. One of the lead
characters is named Leonie. I instantly
thought of you.
January 5th, 2010 at 6:10 pm
You are beatiful mama. Wishes you and your daughter happy always.
January 6th, 2010 at 1:12 am
Oh, Leonie. (*said as a warm, airy sigh*)
This is beautiful. You are beautiful. The way that you are transitioning from maiden to mama with such grace and love and warmth is an inspiration.
January 6th, 2010 at 2:05 am
You made me tear.
January 6th, 2010 at 4:02 am
This is so beautiful, the pictures and the letter…Absolutely bursting with love! Congratulations on your sixth month pregnacious!
January 6th, 2010 at 12:39 pm
These words and images are just absolutely stunning~
January 9th, 2010 at 2:12 pm
You look absolutely Radiant!
Many goddess blessings!
January 15th, 2010 at 9:35 pm
This post is *radiantly*beautiful*…
…and so are YOU!
I believe this may be the most perfect and delightful pregnancy post I’ve *ever* read.
My, oh, my.
I am blown away.